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Personality - We've Gots It?
Kaze Hikaru - Kids!
My personality type: the dreamy idealist

With generalized statements that all don't quite apply to me, I went with majority rules. ^^;

Came back from my follow-up appointment this late morning. I'll have to go onto some form of HBC and weather out the storm of any possible side effects. I'll probably be starting as soon as the following week (when the nurse returns from vacation), but hoping for the best... as I have a LOT of talks coming up over the next couple months.

More on that later.

In the meanwhile, it turns out I have a pretty bad case of endometriosis. My ovaries, tubes, and uterus are all stuck together like one huge lump and my doctor couldn't remove most of it. He popped and drained the cysts, but it looks like if I'm ever to have kids, I'd have to go to an infertility specialist. It all depends if my tubes have been squished shut with all the growth. He says things look unlikely to come together naturally.

Which makes me feel rather sad inside - despite my not planning to start a family any time soon. A small quiet part of me says that I might have missed my chances, but honestly - me having kids right now wouldn't be a great idea either.

I guess it's all part of a much larger plan for me. I have to optimistically believe in that much.

Meanwhile, the surgi-tapes have been removed and things seem to be healing well. Sitting is still rather uncomfortable and I've have several nights of restless sleep. (A couple nights, I had dreams I was doing synchronized swimming routines... stuff I haven't done since late elementary school. o_O;) The body's still healing, and I sometimes forget that it hasn't quite been a week yet.

I have so much stuff to do... Talk about being totally derailed. Getting back on track is a real test of will. *sigh*

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ewwww, endometriosis. That's what coleylou had >.>

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Admittedly, that doesn't sound too promising. However, hopefully things will work out in the long run.

I am an Individualistic Doer.

I hope things will work out and that you'll be back on your feet and out and about soon!

Awwww hugs. Just take your time in getting back into the swim of things. You've been through a lot.

Ack Endometriosis.. For some reason it seems more common than I'd think. Like Wayne said Coley had it and it sounded like a battle. I hope it doesn't affect you too much. Hang in there Kitsy!

Endometriosis is fairly common. Serious cases, to that extent, are not quite so common. How come we know of so many people who have it?! D:

Before I was conceived, my mother was told that she would have to get pregnant pretty fast if she wanted another child, because she had severe endometriosis and would need a hysterectamy.

So I was conceived within 2 weeks after that. The Dr. was shocked to say the least, LOL!

Due to my connective tissue disorder, and my mom's medical history, the Dr's didn't even check to see if I had Endometriosis when I started having severe pain down there. They said if it wasn't Endometriosis, then the connective tissue disorder was creating an identical problem.

So that's when I started taking the depo injection - because surgery is already pretty risky for me, and I'm also too young for a hysterectamy.

It sucks when you realize you probably can't have kids, but once you also realize that you can adopt when you're ready to have kids; that makes things a bit better. The "maternal craving" and "ticking clock" feelings never go away, though.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I understand what you're going through, and am here if you'd ever like to talk about it. I hope you have a swift recovery!

*many snugs*

~ Jibby

Thanks so much~ TT I know you, especially, have gone through a lot and reading through your entries is a window for me to understand a little of what others go through.

I'm somewhat wary about taking the depo shots - previous HBC gave me severe and frequent migraines and nausea... I suppose with proper preventative measures I can handle the nausea, but migraines literally shut me down until I could lie down, take my pills, and sleep it off. Being stuck for 3 months with the side effects makes me worry, but I'm trying to be optimistic about it and hope for the best~

The depo shots create migraines for me as well, but it's better than having migraines AND the pain of endometriosis. (Severe migraines are hereditary in the women of my mother's side of the family.)

I get my depo injections every 8 weeks instead of the usual 12 weeks due to the migraines - and I still get the severe migraines starting at 2 weeks before getting my depo injection. (Which is right about now. I get my depo, annual, & bone density tests on the 17th)

I do have a Neuro. that I work closely with about my neurological pain issues, and that helps tremendously; but I still cannot work, so I am on disability.

I really do hope and pray that things turn out better for you. My case is pretty rare due to the Marfan Syndrome and such, but it always saddens me to see others go through similar pain and trauma.


PS: Is the KimonoKitsy Studios address the same as yours? I still have the envelope from the Holiday season cards you sent out w/ the return address. I'd like to try and send you something sometime soon.

I hope and pray for the best as well~ I'm not sure what it is about this period in my life? Not to say that I've always been the most fit of individuals, but I've had more than my share of trips to the ER, doctor and dentists over these past 4 years. T__T;

The address should reach me no problem~ :D

I know what you mean - I was perfectly ok with only a migraine here or there until late 2003. After that, everything went CHAOTIC with my body. Ended up having surgeries left and right, ER visits, new doctors, new diagnoses', new meds, etc. I'm wondering when this hellish ride will ever end. I stay optimistic, but sometimes it's hard when you finally get up, and something else smacks you down.

Oh no =( I was afraid of that. That sounds almost exactly like Coley's case. I'm so sorry to hear that (and I really hope you don't have the constant bleeding Coley and I went through...). I guess I should be really happy my pain turned out to be nothing (or at least, it went away), because that sounds really scary!!

Take care, and hang in there!! And I hope the tissue growths are under control =\

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about the endometriosis. That must have been hard news to take. The fertility specialists can do so much, though, these days... I don't believe you've missed your chances.

I loves you. I pray for you!
Take care-- having kids is not so important as having your life and living it fully-- like you are doing!
So rest easy and know we love ya. ::hug::

I'm glad to hear you're doing better, I was worried. Hang in there, and I hope things will work out for the best.

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